my-unforGeTtabLe-meMoRiEs

FaLSaFaH MeLaYu MoDeN

2007-10-11T21:31:00.000+08:00

1) harapkan pagar, pagar tak boleh harap

2) carik-carik bulu ayam, lama-lama jadi suttlecock

3) sepandai mana tupai melompat,akhirnya tak masuk olimpik juga

4) hendak seribu daya, taknak sudah

5) lembu punya susu, cap teh-ko dapat nama

6) ke mana tumpahnya kuah kalau tidak ke bawah

7) tiada rotan, pelempang berguna juga

8) di mana ada gula, di situ ada gula-gula

9) gajah mati meninggalkan gading,harimau mati meninggalkan belang,manusia mati meninggal dunia.

10) berapa berat mata memandang berat lagi seguni beras

11) cubit paha kanan peha kiri tak rasa apa-apa pun

12) diam2 ubi berisi diam2 orang bisu

13) sambil menyelam tengok kapal selam

14) sebab pulut santan binasa, sebab mulut habis pulut

15) kecil-kecil cili padi,kecil lagi biji cili

~al-kentut~

2007-09-30T21:08:00.000+08:00

ii saw this somewhere.. n ii wanna share it with uu peepz.. ahakz... happie reading... =)

al-kentut

Jenis Orang dan Jenis Kentutnya

* Orang TIDAK JUJUR Orang yang kalau kentut lalu menyalahkan orang lain.

* Orang BANGANG Orang yang menahan kentutnya sampai berjam-jam.

* Orang BERWAWASAN LUAS Orang yang tahu bila harus kentut.

* Orang SENGSARA Orang yang ingin kentut tapi tidak boleh kentut.

* Orang MISTERIUS Orang yang kalau kentut, orang lain tidak ada yang tahu.

* Orang GUGUP Orang yang tiba-tiba menahan kentutnya bila tiba masa nak kentut.

* Orang yang PERCAYA DIRI SENDIRI Orang yang selalu mengira kalau kentutnya bau harum.

* Orang SADIS Orang yang kalau kentut di ranjang terus dikibaskan baunya ke ranjang orang lain.

* Orang PEMALU Orang yang kalau kentut tidak bunyi tapi lalu merasa malu sendiri.

* Orang yang STRATEGIK Orang yang menyembunyikan kentutnya dengan tertawa terbahak-bahak biar orang lain tidak dengar.

* Orang BODOH Orang yang kalau habis kentut menghirup nafas untuk mengganti kentutnya yang keluar.

* Orang PELIK Orang yang kalau kentut di keluarkan sikit- sikit, sampai bunyi "tit-tit-tit".

* Orang SOMBONG Orang yang sering mencium kentutnya sendiri.

* Orang RAMAH Orang yang senang mencium kentut orang lain.

* Orang yang tidak senang BERGAUL Orang yang kalau kentut, sembunyi.

* Orang AKUATIK Orang kalau kentut di dalam air sampai bunyi blekuthuk-blekuthuk".

* Orang ATLETIK Orang kalau kentut sambil mengeluarkan tenaga dalam.

* Orang JUJUR Orang yang mengaku kalau habis kentut.

* Orang PINTAR Orang yang boleh menandai bau kentut orang lain.

* Orang MALANG Orang yang nak kentut tapi terkeluar taik....

:: uPDaTeS foR n0w ::

2007-09-18T21:36:00.000+08:00

muahaha... DANNY DANIEL against FAHNA SOTONG... man VS woman... any votes anyone?? haha... ii juz lurve tis pic... lol... :-p

okae peepz... 1stly... ii juz wanna thank god for allowing me to take my exam... n tt means.. my appeal is granted... so... exam's over now... n ive got lyk wad?!! 4 wks which is equivalent to a mth?!! ahakz.... ii tok to darling pillay and we had a long tok.. from 11.30am all d wae till 6 plus in d evening... yeah... ii sure miss him n d other one... [[dun wanna mention his name larh...]] but.. ive learnt to accept reality... he used to be mine... but not for long... n darling... uu noe tt ii do feel something for uu... but we sure noe our limits to our feelings... n ii hope... uu do get wat ii was trying to explain to uu that tyme... yarh... y is it that we didnt mit each other earlier... but we're juz fated to be lyk tis ii guess... wateva it is.... treasure anitha, aitex??

aniwae... my bolster... its been a month since we dated each other... but well... god has something else planned for us ii guess... it's okae...

fahna n myra... let's pray for d best abt danny, aitex??

okae larh... tt's abt it for now... im bz werking nowadaez... cobaan dier... bnyk... especially... werking in d F&B industry nie....

ii shall end my blog tis tyme.. with a pic of a mysterious person... [[my galfwenz.. if uu wanna noe who... call me up, kae??]]

with a little warmth
-=dya=-

:: LosT n GaiN ::

2007-09-07T13:50:00.000+08:00

okiez.. well gals... our dear friend, lulu... she has left for LA tis morneng... me n fahna sent her off juz now... it was a sad moment larh... me n fahna were lyk trying our best not to let any tears roll down our cheeks larh... it was tarching sungguh tadi.. hehe....

oraitx.. fahna... our mr policeman is gone... im quite pissed larh that he adcili plaed with our feelings... he noes that he's not supposed to befriend any gals larh from d very beginning.. haiz~ but nvm. it's over. no pt dwelling over it.

so... conferencing is back ii guess. practically... we're owaez on d fone at nyte. but now.. our dear fahna... is owaez bz at nyte with her "dear". nie takleh jadi nie... hmm... but it's okae.. ive oreadi gotten a plan to save d situation.

TO azRi kawan FAHNA.. ii noe ure reading tis.. n ii oso noe that fahna has told uu... but it's okae.. im gonna typed it out aniwae...

Listen up.. FaHNa... akan ku tolak bestie ku ini jauh jauh ke tengah laut.... n leave her there alone... oni wit a walky-talky. tau knape tak?? ahakz.. so that.. oni me can tok to her... muahaha... ii cannot tolak uu coz.. fahna will find another replacement.. so tt.. defeat d purpose.. :p BUT... tis plan is oni gonna be effective IF eva... uu langgar peraturan...

uu noe wat's d rule now?? haha... uve chosen to tok to fahna afta 2... hmmm.... pandai anak mak nie berfikir... afta 2 boleh bobal for another hour compared to 12 to 2 kan?? *clap clap* hehe...so.. before two... no call... no msg.. can oni tok in MSN oni... no contacts thru hp or telephone umah, kae?? deal?? *chuckles*

BUT sorrie.. fahna akan dihukum.. for another week... coz.. tadi pagi dier lambat.... so... jangan marah yer?? nak marah.. marah fahna... hehe... hukuman dier.. nanti akan ku pikia dulu... hehe....

well.... fahna... im not sure abt IBRAHIM aka ZACK.... haha... neither m ii sure abt that KAMAL aka DANNY DANIEL.. ahakz... dun worrie.. dier tak akan tau yg aku tau namer dier yang sebenar... ahakz....

with a little warmth

-=dya_lembu=-

a coMeBack... wEe~

2007-08-27T21:23:00.000+08:00

heyy heyy...... yess arh... im BACK...... with a new blog skin....

well.... it's been a while since ii update about my lyf.... hmm.... lyf has been sucky for me for the past few months... mostly... dealing with emotions....... :-(

ermz....... quite hectic for me.... my loved one left me...... n tt makes me go into a disappearing spree... ii nid to be alone... pull all my courage together.... ii noe... ii hafta stand back on my feet no matter wat... wat has happened was meant to happen n it cant be undone... yes..... n now.. here ii am... going thru lyf which has neva been peaceful for me.......

he's gone.. he thot me d real meaning of hatred... but.. tt's in d past.. now.. there's no more hatred.. in fact... frenship still rekindles..... n im happie for it tho ii noe we can neva be together. again. but it's okae, dear. ii can accept that now. dun worrie.

hmm... tt's all in d past. im not gonna dwell too much on it. now.. im facing a bigger problem. okies.. yarh... ii got debart. BUT... ii haf my reasons... it's not lyk ii chose to be debart but im left wit no choice. in situation lyk d one im going thru.... obviously.. uu wud take the same decision as me. between ur mom n education... which is more impt?? ii noe. education is oso important to me. but if anything were to happen to ur mom... r uu going to be happie with the cert that ure striving for??

Education is important n ii dun deny that... but... uu can find education at any stage of lyf... howeva... if anything were to happen to ur mom, n worst, uu lost her along d wae... where on earth can uu find anyone to replace ur own mother?? so... im asking uu peepz now... m ii wrong to choose not to come to school n look afta my sick mother at home?? yes.. ii do haf my other siblings... but dae r guyz... compared to me... dae nid d education n cert more than ii do in tymes lyk tis. sorrie if im blabbering to much on my family prob.. but ii haf no one to tok to. ii dun wanna be a burden to anybody by approaching em when im having problems.. esp pertaining to family.

Now.. luckily my family has found an alternative solution to solve my problem so.. all ii hope is that... my appeal is being approved n that im being allowed to sit for my exam. amin. *prays hard*

aniwae.... peepz.. ive shifted. thanx to those who had come over to house last saturdae. ii reallie reallie appreciate it.

To my galfwenz... im grateful that our paths of lyf adcili crossed each other's n it will continue to do so till death do us apart. Lulu.. all d best n take care when ure in LA, aitex?? haha... ii hope that uu lyked d small farewell that we've planned for uu cum my house warming. :-)

and my bestie, NUR FARHANA BTE SALLEH, haha... we're back.. to become nyte owls. haha. that eddy boy.. haha... he duzn sound lyk any mr policeman seii. kau cube bayangkan... mr policeman maner yg tak tau direction dier pat singapore?? kalau fahna kiter nie.. at least okae larh... haha... aku tau larh.. jurong ngan tamp tuu... dari hujung tanjung ke hujung tanjung.... tapi.. takkan larh sampai nk kene jadi bestie ngan apek teksi kan?? haha....

hmm... haywire, my bolster... ii wun forget d tyme spent wit him larh. sesiape yg tau pasal me n him.. juz kip to urself jerkkz.

okiex then... adios...

with a little warmth

-=dya_kekek=-

|| DaMBaaN CiNTa ||

2007-03-08T21:03:00.000+08:00

-=DaMBaaN CinNTa=-

Ungkapan kata selindung hasrat nan di hati

Andainya ditafsir terserlah makna yang tersembunyi

Renungan mata... bukan pandangan biasa..

Bertahun andai terjalin hingga waktu ini

Gurauan mesra menghiasi masa kita bersama

Semakin berputik.. pera..sa..an ini..

Chorus

Kini baru kusedari..

Selama ini kau kusayangi..

Andai bukan itu hakikatnya..

Mengapa rindu yang kurasa..

Mungkin tiada kufahami..

Tidak dapat kuna..fi..kan lagi..

Beban rahsia kian.. membakar.. diri..

Kalimah cinta selongkar renungan dicipta

Mungkinkah dibiarkan terdampar

Kasih tak kesampaian..

Naluri bisik.. bukannya dambaan cinta..

Repeat Chorus

Kini baru kusedari..
Selama ini kau kusayangi..
Andai bukan itu hakikatnya..
Mengapa rindu yang kurasa..

Mungkin tiada kufahami..
Tidak dapat kuna..fi..kan lagi..
Beban rahsia kian.. membakar.. diri..

Ikhlas kunyatakan..

Kau yang kusayangi..

Kau yang kucinta..i..

Walau tak mampu kumiliki..

Ingin kuluahkan..

Mungkin suatu hari..

Kan terbuka pintu hati..

Dapat jua.. kau terima.. diriku akhirnya..

Ohh.. Ohh.. Ohh..

Ikhlas kunyatakan..
Kau yang kusayangi..
Kau yang kucinta..i..
Walau tak mampu kumiliki..

Ingin kuluahkan..
Mungkin suatu hari..
Kan terbuka pintu hati..
Dapat jua.. kau terima.. diriku akhirnya..

CHINGAY pixtures

2007-03-02T16:34:00.000+08:00

here are the pix tt we've taken during this year CHINGAY performances tt ive promised.. enjoy looking.. wee~

*dya-zai-cindy*

*dya* *cindy-dya* *dya-fazli*

here are some of the pix of the performances that were being taken during both d prviews n d actual dae..

*cindy-dya*[[too bright due to the spotlite]]

CHINGAY 2007

2007-03-02T13:53:00.000+08:00

okey~~

it's been a long tyme since ii reallie blogged.. n todae.. im back.. itupun coz im sick todae.. ii didnt go to skewl.. so ii haf tyme to blog adcili since im doing nuthng back home..

well.. ive been bz wit my dance practice for CHINGAY tis year.. ii joined coz mia wanted to.. n ii thot tt it wud be cool.. howeva.. she backed out last minute.. so yeah.. on d dae of d rehearsal pat PA.. ii managed to pull fir in.. so.. fir was somehow a last minute member but d latest was cindy.. she oni learnt d steps on tt very dae itself.. cool~ manz! she's a fast learner...

ive been staeing up late and waking up early everyday.. trying to complete my assigments n all.. everyday... ii reached home at 10 plus.. n ii will do my assignments afta tt.. it cud last till 3am before ii tucked in to sleep.. tt's my routine everyday ii gez.. especially since exams are arnd d corner...

on thursdae[[150207]], we had our rehearsal at PA in kallang.. wen we reached there.. we were quite lost... everyone there seems to noe d steps.. d funny thing is tt.. we were told tt we nid to be there by 5pm.. we were 10 mins late.. but it cant be possible that those people cud learn d whole steps within 10 minutes, ryte?!! ridiculous! [[ahakz.. d word that fir had used to decsribe it..]] soon.. dae told us to take our 30 minutes break.. hazril was lyk.."kiter blom lagi berpeluh.. dah suro g break.." wakaka.. kecoh!

fir came late.. but his presence somehow.. adds to d fun for tt dae.. ii was arguing wit him non-stop.. from d tyme ii met him at PA till d tyme we were msging at home.. ii tink ive blogged abt tt earlier.. so im not gonna elaborate on it...

btw.. the members of d CHINGAY are.. dya, fir, azhari, hazril, fazli, halim, zai n cindy... yes arhh!! BL n SC combines.. hehe.. dun worrie... ii will upload d pix up too at d end of tis entry for uu peepz to view n enjoy looking at it..

speaking abt zai.. yarh.. it seems that me n zai r getting closer nowadaez.. ii suppose that if ii did not join CHINGAY tis year.. ii wudn even bother to get close to her.. well.. ii used to haf a conflict wit her during our BL camp that she was known as my rival then.. but it's over.. lyk ive told d rest.. ii haf no issues if dae wanna pull syak n zai in into our YEABAA grup.. juz as long as she duzn find fault wit me.. im okey wit it..~ so yeah.. FADILY.. read tt, aitez?? ii haf no issues wit zai dari dulu lagi.. *bluekz*

on d 23rd... during d preview.. we adcili miss our que.. even d tcher-in-charge didnt noe.. all of us except for fir.. we were lyk.. "wokie~ we fought for our tickets coz our name was not in there n wen we got it.. we didnt get to perform.. lyk waddahell??" ahakz.. kecoh..

went home wit fir alone.. since everyone except cindy is taking d NS line.. we walked all d wae to Plaza Singapura coz d both of us were hungry.. bought our food at McDonalds n we ate outside d MRT station.. went home arnd 12 plus n reached home arnd 2 plus coz there wasnt any LRT or bus services left by the time ii reached Sengkang station.. so.. ii had to walk.. im quite scared adcili.. esp afta being followed by d Bangladesh incidents.. tt ii kip looking back to make sure tt no one is following me..

on d actual dae.. we had our practice at CEMTA.. n made our wae to Cinneileisure to get our lunch.. everyone looks great, manz! our performing area is at area 2.. opposite Heeren.. pillay darling saed tt he wud come but he didnt.. im not sure abt udrena.. but wat ii noe.. azri syg didnt turn up either.. well.. it's okey.. ii can still accept it tho ii noe.. ive lost d both of em ryte now.. :(

fir, halim, fazli n zai was pulled to try d belly-dancing.. but manz! it's more lyk a shoulder-dancing to me.. ahakz.. kiuut sey diaorg.. wen all was done.. we made our wae to Plaza Singapura again to accompany zai to meet dawn.. nana came to mit us there too.. she adcili walked all d wae from marina to dhobby ghaut.. touchingkan?? hekz..

took d train back wit fir again.. n dropped off at Kovan to mit yenn.. hang out wit her until wei jun called me up to join him n haykel for supper.. asked yenn along n we went to eat at Jalan Kayu.. then, we sent yenn home n off we went to east coast beach.. manz! all d memories of me n him came back... ii reallie reallie missed him lyk hell.. but now.. memories r oni meant s memories.. ii dunno.. ii will blog abt it later... went home at 5 plus in d mornengz.. until ii recieved a BAD, SH0CK, DISAPPOINTING, HURTING, HEART-WRNECHING news from him... ii dunno watelse to sae.. ii cried non-stop till abt 8am n went to sleep.. woke up at 11.30am to realise that ii was adcili crying in my sleep.. tt shows how much d news affected me.. tt shows how much ii lurvee him n how much he means to me.. but well.. wat can ii do?? haiz~

signing out

-=dayah_kekek aka lembu=-

a poEm deDicaTed t0 my beLoved azRi

2007-02-27T22:54:00.000+08:00

This poem is specially dedicated to whoeva the person is...

This moment I will always remember
This scene is so familiar
Holding your hand tight together
Both of us can't bear to let go
Each time I wanted to say something
It's better to kept it silent
Give me just one minute
To concentrate and admire your charms

Happiness comes with sadness
At the same time, it's struggling in my heart
The confusing tears can't gauge the sadness that I'm feeling
The love that I've given can't be taken back
The things that you owe me need not be returned
Please don't take my heart away with you

Everytime I'm apart from you, I'm deeply defeated by you
Everytime I give out your gentleness, I felt the pain in me
Everytime before we part, everytime before we kiss and bid each other goodbye
It will only be the time I taste a feeling of being loved.

p-lay darLiNg~

2007-02-19T16:06:00.000+08:00

Pillay darling... ii dunno watz wrong wit uu... ii msged uu... uu NEVA reply... ii MSN-ing wit uu.. still.. there was N0 RESP0NSE!!

ii dunno watz reallie happening to uu...

suddenly... uu msged me n tell me to take care of myself n tt uu lurvee me very much... ii was lyk... "watz happening?? im blur!" wen ii asked uu.. uu told me tt uu dun haf d desire to live... lyk waddahell larh?? ure juz making me more worried uu noe...

nvm larh darling... if tt's d wae uu gonna be lyk... it's fine wit me.. continue to make me more worried for uu... both uu n him... owaez make me worrying for uu guyz.. haf uu guyz eva considered my feelings?? ii CARE for d both of uu, okey?? but watz d pt if ii cant even do anything to help d both of uu in tymes lyk tis?? aargh!! ii juz hate tis sia!!

watever larh... juz continue to be lyk tt... im going kraziee soon!! :(

P.S: *ii wonder who duzn nid who now*

signing out

-=dayah_kekek a.k.a lembu=-

++dedicated to CM++

2007-02-19T15:53:00.000+08:00

hmm... tis entry is dedicated mainly to HIM... he shud noe who im referring to larh ehk...

well... ii gez... sometymes... accidents do haf a blessing behind it, huh?? yerpz... ive been keeping tis to myself for quite some tyme now.. n ii tink... it's tyme tt uu noe how ii reallie feel...

honestly, ive oreadi prepared a letta for uu.. tinggal tunggu maser ajer... but ii dun dare... ii dun haf d courage to pass it to uu.. coz.. im not prepared for watz gonna happen afta tt...

however, ii sense d urgent need to tell uu tis... n god has answered to my prayers... ive accidentally msged uu abt how ii felt wen it was meant for my fwen... it's gd that ure observant enuff to realise that ii was referring to uu... n ii felt relieved somehow...

thus, im gonna repeat my words once again...

"ive thot thru it n ive oreadi made up my mind...ii still want tis relation that ii haf wit uu... coz ii still treasure it... so... no matter wat... wateva ure doing even tho it is too hurting for me... ii haf to take it by my side n accept it... ii pray hard tt at the end of d dae.. u'll realise how much ii love uu... n ii mean it..."

well... it's up to uu to decide... if uu tink tt ure gonna take advantage over wat ive juz recited... then.. go ahead... but ii believe tt ure not tt cruel...

yerpz.. ii gez that's all tt ii hafta sae...

signing out

-=dayah_kekek a.k.a lembu=-

"mY bDaE g|FTs"

2007-02-18T14:41:00.000+08:00

weii weii...

blogging tis juz to share wit all of uu who read my blog...

let me list down d presents tt ive gotten tis year...

1. Heart-Shaped Chocolate

2. Handphone pouch

3. Small soft-toy [[Bear]]

4. Teddy Bear

5. Belt

6. Tudung

7. Lip Gloss

8. Tongs

9. Dildo

10. Handphone Cover [[Nokia 7250i]]

11. Sony Ericsson W810C [[mcm firnyer..:p]]

12. Winnie-d-Pooh Bear

13. Tobblerone Chocolate

14. G-String

15. Bikini

16. An edible lingerie

whoa~ it seems tt ive gotten d complete sets tis yr, huh?? A tong, a dildo, a g-string, a bikini and an edible lingerie... THANX ehk EVERYONE who had given me all tt!! wee~...

n firdaus... im not menyibuk-ing okey?? how wud ii noe tt ii wud get a hp which is similar to urs, huh?? wadda hell larh... ahakz... :p

n uu my candy... let me tell uu larh ehk... ii can ONI do tt for uu if uu end up being my one n oni HUBBY, aitez?? muahaha... ermz...*uu noe ii noe larh ehk...:p*

signing out -=dayah_kekek a.k.a lembu=-

mY wOes

2007-02-17T00:29:00.000+08:00

16th february is here n yes... dya_lembu is a yr older on tis very dae... being 21 tis year... a yr where most will sae... "ohh.. uve gotten d key to freedom.." well... to a certain extent ii agree...

why??

coz... girls will owaez be girls in eir mother's eyes... we can neva escape from eir sight... but well... it's nuthng new to me...

hmm.. so.. how did ii go celebrating my bdae tis yr?? let me see...

firstly... ii wud lyk to thank my YEABAA members for celebrating my bdae as well wen we celebrated lalat's bdae on d 2nd of feb... not forgetting fyra's n sam's larh... n yes... afiq n hafiz!!! uu guyz lied to me larh... can come n tell me tt d chocs cost uu peepz nearly 50 bucks... ii was shocked larh... but ii was too gullible to believe uu bros ii gez... but hey?? uu cant blame me, okey?? coz... it's my BDAE present... thanx ehk... tho it ONI cost nearly $7 n not $50.... ii still appreciate it larh... coz... it's d thot tt counts... :)

next... hafiz bought me a new hp cover for my hp... well... not tt ii dun lyk it... but lyk ive saed... im gonna get for myself a new hp, ryte?? but.. wateva it is... thanx hafiz for it...

hmm... tis is d best part tt im gonna blogged abt in tis entry... my GALFWENZ from TANJONG KATONG GIRLS' SCHOOL... namely.. fahna, merah, khairah, lulu, juju, nadz n wany.... uu guyz did an awesome jobs... *thumbs up for d party tt uve organised*.. wee~

on d 10th of feb... we made our wae to lulu's condo in Pasir Panjang... fahna came wit ari[[tho he was late larh..]], juju came wit fir n liz came wit shakir... had lotsa fun... dae've planned a bdae party for me n liz... ii was touched n shocked larh in a wae... coz... ii knew abt d party but ii dun reallie noe watz gonna happen during d party... how ii wish my candy was there larh... but too bad.. he was not able to make it...

ii was adcili being tailed by two Bangladesh men...dae followed me all d wae from harbourfront to kent ridge terminal back to lulu's condo... juz to get my no. waddahell larh... it scares me lyk hell lorz!! msged fir SM n azri syg... n azri syg accompanied me on the fone larh... coz ii didnt noe wat to do... n to tink tt he can still joke arnd in tymes lyk tis arh..

Dya: "Why are these banglas following me sia??"

Azri: "That's becoz ure pretty.."

wah!! wen ii heard tt... ii was happie larh... tt ii adcili make him repeat it 3 tymes... muahaha... sorrie syg...ii juz cant help it since it's been a long tyme since ive heard such remarks from uu larh ehk... so... tt shud show... how long haf we not being kiping in touch lyk how we used to larh... ii missed those daez sia... reallie... seriusly... adoii.

@ lulu's house... we plaed d black magic game n d mrt game... haha.. kekek larh... wen all was bored... we plaed d 7 level pigs... kecoh sakz... d bez part was wen liz tried to distract ari n get him to tok to her... she called his hp up...n he picked it up... wakaka... terus ari kene promoted to 2nd level pig.. ahakz... n d biggest pig was fir ii tink... kecoh sey..

then... it's tyme to cut d birthdae cake... alahai... d cake was nice n well decorated larh... lurvee it sia... liz was shocked tt we're there to celebrate her bdae s well... she wasnt informed abt it larh.. duh! kate surprise mah?? ii got my presents from em... n im reallie reallie touched... n ari... thanx so much for paeing for d pizzas yarh?? wee~

tis yr... ive gotten my presents from fahna, juju, khairah, mairah, nadz, fir SM, nana, my mom, n many others larh... ii wud lyk to thank all of uu who had wished me be it thru hp, msg thru frensta, testimonials, kolling my hp juz to wish me n oso verbally... it's swit of uu peepz larh... ii oso wud lyk to take tis opportunity to thank udrena for tt small little card from uu larh... it's reallie meaningful for me... THANK YOU EVRERYONE!!!

btw... HAPPIE BIRTHDAE UDRENA bebeh!!!

now... ii wud like to mention abt FIRDAUS bin RASHID... how on earth did uu get to noe abt my bdae?? ii mean.. ii was trying my best as to not tell him larh... coz... ii didnt want him to get me anythng in return for wat ive given him for his bdae last yr... if he were to noe.. ii wud prefer it if he noes it afta my bdae has passed or in simple words... ii expect him to be d last person to noe larh... but ii was shocked wen he asked me wat im gonna do for my bdae... whoa~

wen ii asked him... uu noe wat he saed?? "ii did my research n interrogate some pple as to noe wen's ur bdae.." if tt's d truth.. im loss for words.. coz.. uu took d initiative juz to find out wen's my bdae larh... @ first ii thot it was thru frensta.. but... he saed it wasnt... yeah... uu neva noe if he's lying... but wateva it is... thanx fir... *syg awak*

hmm... pple... im sorrie for not blogging lately... im bz larh... lagi-lagi now.. im involved in CHINGAY.. together wit d SC students n zai n fir... haha... fir was somehow a laz minute member who was being pulled in larh... thanx to me.. muahaha... but it was fun larh to haf him arnd...

try asking zai n d other SC peepz.. dae juz cant stop laughing n smiling looking at me n fir argueing non-stop... ahakz... lyk s if we're d jokers for d dae... even on my bdae... in d logistic room... nana was juz looking @ us... we juz cudn stop argueing wit each other... ahakz... kecoh sey!!

hmm... enuff of d happie moments...

there's sure to be sad moments larh ehk... well... ii didnt wanna make a big fuss larh tt those two didnt celebrate my bdae wit me... coz... ii was told tt he has to be @ d temple on my bdae... n mia told me tt she wanted to plan a surprise for me initially... but her daddy saed tt he cudn promise coz he has to go out wit his sista or somethng lyk tt larh... so... ii was lyk.. okie larh~ ii understand tt dae r bz... so... ii dun reallie blame em.. but uu noe wat ii found out?? dae went out to plae bowling...okie.. probably d sista refers to udrena larh...

okae... tt's fine wit me... ii kinda suspect tt dae went out to celebrate udrena's bdae... ii dun blame her... ii wasnt angry wen ii learnt d truth... wat pissed me off is tt... tis darling of mine... was lyk... putting words into my mouth larh...

heyy!! do uu noe how much ii missed uu people?? but now tt uu saed tt ii dun nid uu animore juz becoz ii saed i'll c how larh wen uu asked me to go out wit uu todae... wah! do uu noe how hurt ii was... tears was rolling down larh... worst... uu asked me whether ii lurvee uu or not... n uu even asked me to prove it to uu... ii was lyk... "okie.. now.. he's oso doubting me larh.. n tt he duzn even trust me larh.." im reallie reallie hurt n disappointed.

okie.. mebe im having my M00D SWINGS now since im having my MENSUS... sorrie darlings... ii didnt mean to hurt uu in any wae... sorrie if my words were harsh yesterdae in my replies n all.. ii dunno larh.. i've oreadi felt d loss now... *god.. pls help me!!* ii reallie reallie lurvee d both of em so much... but ii dunno larh...

to my candy.. ii dunno watz happening to us now.. each dae.. ii can oni cherish d happie moments tt we had.. im missing uu badly... *sobz*

we nid to tok.. seriusly.

signing out

-=dayah_kekek a.ka. lembu=-

||moJo gRad daE||

2007-02-08T22:19:00.000+08:00

well.. todae is abg mojo's grad dae.. was happie to see him larh juz now... so.. im blogging to update d pic tt ive taken wit em.. oni a few tt ii haf.. coz.. d rest is in cindy's hp n joanne's camera..

ii lurve tis pic d most.. coz we all looked so perfect.. wit him in d middle.. ahhh!! ii reallie miss those daez with him... ii dunno y.. but now.. each dae.. ii juz feel awkward weneva im arnd him.. for eg..

Yesterdae [[070207]], ii went home late coz.. nobody's was home larh.. n so.. ii made my trip to his house area in Admiralty n made my wae back to Sengkang.. juz to kill tyme larh ehk.. how ii wish it was juz me n him alone.. but it duzn werk.. even afta udrena left.. during d jourmey.. ii was damn farkking tired larh.. but ii refused to lay my head on his shoulder tho he asked me to.. ii dunno.. ii juz feel awkward.. esp afta wat juz happened recently larh...

wen udrena alighted from d bus.. it was oni me n him left.. but howeva.. altho ii juz wish.. ii cud hug him once again n neva let go.. ii juz cant.. no matter how much ii long for it.. ii juz shake his hand n walked awae.. god!! y izit tt im reacting tis wae??

now.. im gonna repeat tis! I'VE NEVA PUT HIGH HOPES ON HIM N IT'S STILL REMAIN TT WAE.. but.. hey~ no one can stop me from lurving him, ryte?? n ii juz hope that those words from him in d wee hours on 261206 was true larh.. so uu.. ii hope uu try to understand me lyk wat im doing now.. im trying to understand uu, aitez??

now.. im moving on to d other matters tt nids clarification. lyk wat ive tagged.. im not gonna persue d matter animore.. lyk wat ive tagged on my tag board.. ii juz wanna thank those who had adcili write those heart-renching comments on my tag board.. tt's all ii can sae...

hafiz.. personally.. ii juz wanna sae im sorrie if ive hurt uu in any wae.. ii seriusly haf no idea watz going on.. but ii dun mean anythng arh.. okey??

kae larh.. ii shall stop here...

signing out

-=dayah_kekek a.k.a lembu=-

~hEy hEy~

2007-02-05T08:19:00.000+08:00

well... ii am blogging tis entry early in d morneng... while waiting for su, diana n zimah to arrive larh.. coz.. our projects stuffs are wit em..

ii sense d urgent need to blog tis entry coz.. ii nid to clarify tis issue once n for all before it gets out of hands larh ehk..

to all those pple out there.. whoeva read my blog... if uu tink tt one of d sections where ii blogged abt my past.. im not referring to those two in particular.. [[uu shud noe who larh ehk]] im sorrie if anybody terase yg it's meant for em.. but d truth is tt.. d person concerned.. didnt even noe tt im adcili toking abt him/her*.. so yeah.. pls larh.. before uu come to any conclusion.. can uu lyk juz come up to me n asked me straight??

wokie.. ii hope.. with tt.. sape sape yg perasan im blogging abt em.. get it ryte, OKEY??

*delete whicheva is applicable

signing out

-=dayah_kekek a.k.a lembu=-

@ words of wisdom @

2007-02-02T15:07:00.000+08:00

ii was reviving d testimonials for tis fren of mine.. where ii came across tis testimonial.. it sounds interesting to me.. so.. ive decided to blog it.. here it goes.. enjoy reading peepz.. (",)

If a girl were to cry in front of you, it means that she couldn't take it anymore.

If you take her hand, she would stay with you for the rest of your life;

If you let her go, she couldn't go back to being herself anymore.

A girl wont cry easily. Except in front of the person who she loves the most,

she becomes weak.

A girl wont cry easily, only when she loves you the most, she puts down her ego.

Guys, if a girl were to cry bcoz of you, please hold her hands firmly, she's the one who would stay with you for the rest of your life.

Guys,

if a girl were to cry bcoz of you, please dont give her up, maybe bcoz of your decision, you'll ruin her life.

When she cries rite in front of you, When she cries bcoz of you, Look into her eyes. Can u see n feel the pain n hurt she's feeling??

Think. Which other girl had cried wif pure sincerity, Infront of you?? And bcoz of you??

She cries not bcoz she's weak, She cries not bcoz she wants sympathy or pity,

She cries, Bcoz crying silently is no longer possible, the pain, hurt, n agony have become too big a burden to be kept inside.

Guys, Think about it. If a girl cries her heart out 2 you, And all bcoz of you, Its time to look back on wat you have done. Only you will know the answer to it.

Do consider it, Coz one day, It may be too late for regrets, It may be too late to say "i'm sorry".

To my friends... Ponder this message seriously. Dont do dis to a girl. You may regret it for the rest of your life. Maybe in your life, she's the only one that love YOU the most!!

"I am STRONG"

2007-01-31T10:43:00.000+08:00

well well.. ive decided.. it's enuff for me to cry and lament on my fate.. it's up to uu arh.. ii shall not stress myself up further.. im not forcing uu.. neither am ii gonna stop lurving uu.. lyk ive saed.. ii will neva break my promise.. true.. ii will be sad and hurt if things do not go d wae we expect it to be.. it's quite a heart pain larh if afta wat has happened... afta wat ive gone thru.. we r not meant for each other.. but ii hope a miracle will happen soon..

no matter how hard it is for me.. ii haf to be strong.. ii wun deny d fact tt ive been crying lately.. im sorrie if tt makes d others get worried abt me.. dun worrie, frenz.. d hidayah tt uu guyz noe.. will be back.. ii will try to put my emotions awae.. n control my sadness..

ii was having my BCM lesson when ii started blogging this entry.. had etp tis morneng.. ii wasnt tt early.. wasnt tt late.. im juz in on tyme.. saw fir again for our etp lecture.. haiz~ d both of us mcm dah feel awkward sey.. did ii do ryte thing?? haiyo!!

saw syg again tis afternoon.. during my break.. semangat sey syg!! dtg skola setakat nk amek gmbr tuk graduation?!! waddahell kan?? ahakz.. happie to c him.. but.. ntah ehk.. was sad oso.. lurvee is seriusly.. a complicated thing.. it's a nice feeling tho..

abg mojo came to sch todae.. somebody was happie larh.. **uu shud noe.. who im referring to larh ehk**.. gosh!!

tyme mcm gini larh.. how ii wish.. my darling pillay.. is here with me.. ii nid him!! darling.. where r uu?? [[darling.. im not sure if ure oreadi confem debarred.. darius saed.. it is.. wen ii saw him @ cafe 1 tis afternoon..]]

haha.. to my fadily syg.. tk leh sabar ke?? ii am blogging tis larh.. n ure lyk rushing me for it.. ahakz..

P.S: To my JACKASS bros n sis.. will ii get a surprise from uu guyz?? ii hope.. ii cud celebrate it wit uu pple arh.. ii lurvee uu peepz, aitez?? *muaXx*

signing off -=dayah_kekek a.k.a lembu=-

"waTz haPpeNinG???"

2007-01-29T22:17:00.000+08:00

ive juz finished doing my IAC on final adjustment.. okey larh.. ii can still do it.. thank god!! one of d chapters tt im able to do...

well.. met fir tis morneng @ cafe 2.. ii was trying my bez to hide from him larh.. dunno whether he noticed me or not... thot tt ii cud escape.. but ii dunno y.. ii kept bumping into him again n again n ii tried not to look @ him... saw him near d photocopying shop below cafe 2... wen me, su, diana n zimah were on our wae to Seng City to buy NEWpaper..saw him again afta school wen ii went cafe 1 to mit up wit d rest of em... from where ii was sitting.. he was facing me larh.. but ii kept my distance awae.. bumped into him again.. @ d atm machine... wen ii was wit joanne.. ii noe tt he n his grup of frenz were behind me... but ii didnt turn back...howeva.. ii didnt manage to run awae from him.. wen ii bumped into him near d lift lobby @ d business blk.. ii was so malu.. ii dunno wat to tok to him...

to my candy... ii dunno.. where are we leading to?? ii do not put any high hopes on uu.. but ii juz cant stop wondering... nobody noes watz going on.. except for d both of us... ii understand ur tight n hectic schedule.. n tt's d reason y.. ii dun get mad when uu didnt contact me for d past few daez... but now... ntahlah uu... ii bingung arh... wateva it is.. for ur information... ii haf neva forgotten abt uu.. ii still lurvee uu n lyk ive saed before.. ii will not break my promise.. NEVA... mark my words!!

to su, diana n zimah... sorrie if wat ive blogged earlier.. hurt uu peepz in any wae.. seriusly.. ii do not haf any intention to jatuhkan maruah sesiape, aitez?? sorrie once again...

okey larh... ii will juz end here.. *missing uu badly*

emotions:

- confused

- crying

- sad

- stressful

signing off

-=dayah_kekek a.k.a lembu=-

firDaus Vs azRi

2007-01-29T01:11:00.000+08:00

todae.. ii had to attend a wedding ceremony.. haiz~ MENDAKZ giler!! thanx to my floss.. he kept me accompanied thru his SMS n all.. lurvee uu fir...

well.. todae.. ii dunno.. ii dunno how shud ii react afta all those confession to fir n vice versa.. mcm malu pun ade wanna face him now.. ermz.. tt's juz d wae ii am larh wen ii confess to anybody how ii feel n all..

well fir.. we'll juz let it remain tt wae for d tyme being, aitez?? we'll c how it goes...

n uu my candy.. ii dunno watz wrong.. but dun uu get d hint?? haiz~ it's juz killing me larh.. ii hate it!! reallie reallie hate it!!

my daughter, mia, ii noe.. thanx for ur concern larh ehk.. if he still duzn get d hint.. ii dunno wat to sae larh.. haiz..~

signing off -=dayah_kekek a.k.a lembu=-

-=coNFuSed=-

2007-01-28T00:35:00.000+08:00

well... ii dunno... is tis wat uu called lurvee?? wen uu lurvee somebody.. uu haf to be strong n confident.. but it duzn mean tt uu haf to be together... tt's wat ii kip telling myself wen it comes to him.. ii dun wanna get hurt.. ii dun wanna get disappointed animore..

n tt's d reason y.. ii am NOT putting high hopes on him.. let GOD decide our fate..

to my floss.. ii dun understand wat uu mean by uu dun wanna get somebody hurt.. n tt uu dun wanna make someone jealous.. ii dun get wat ure trying to tell me wen uu smiled at me afta uu saed those lines.. who were uu referring to?? who's tt someone?? ii hope it's not me.. coz.. ii will juz burst in tears.. ii was controlling it on tt dae.. y izit tt oni now then ure brave enuff to show it?? y muz it oni be now wen ive oreadi given my heart to someone else?? someone who ii am not even putting high hopes on.. ii dun dare...

GOD!!! wat on earth shud ii do?? y izit tt ii dun get jealous wen he "flirts" arnd in sch?? mebe becoz dae r all my frenz.. n who noes?? ii do get jealous.. but ii dun realise it.. haiz~ mebe..

n my darling pillay.. haiyo~ how many times muz ii tell uu?? ure one of those whom ii veri much lurvee.... but it's up to uu larh if uu dun wanna believe me ehk.. read my previous entries.. n uu will noe.. how im feeling now.. tinking of d tyme ii had left wit uu n him... :(

okey larh.. ii shall end here.. *missing him*

signing off -=dayah_kekek a.k.a lembu=-

FARRKK LaRH!!!!!!

2007-01-27T19:11:00.000+08:00

wat on earth is happening now?? ii juz feel tt ure getting further n further awae from me.. juz wen ii was abt to feel d real happiness.. ii had to learn somethng new abt uu..

if wat ive juz read is true.. then.. let me tell uu arh.. uu can go ahead with her.. ii dun mind.. reallie.. lyk ive saed.. ii shall not put any hopes on uu.. aper lagi high hopes.. if it's meant to be.. then.. it's meant to be larh.. hmm.. so.. if she's d one tt can make uu happie.. juz go ahead wit it, aitez??

mebe ure juz being frenz wit her.. even more.. ii dunno.. sorrie if im being paranoid.. but tt's becoz ii lurvee uu.. if uu feel that im not d one.. juz tell me so.. dun lead me on.. pls.. it will juz hurt me more.. allow me to cry now then later.. ii dun wanna fall further... pls! ii begged uu..:(

signing off -=dayah_kekek a.k.a lembu=-

^^ aLL beCauSe oF yOu ^^

2007-01-25T12:09:00.000+08:00

ALL BECAUSE OF YOU

Your smile makes a difference You reflect my dreams Nothing ever matters

Whenever you're with me

Your surprises never fail me You're my need Your innocent reveals

The love I have in me

Bridge I crave for your presence I yearn to hear you

I understand more because of you

Chorus You're a natural All is possible Everything seems right It's so surreal There is no pretence Nothing can compare

To the moments we shared

You're my perfect joy A splendid sight Like a stained glass that Sparkles from inside Unconditional Love and honesty

It's all because of you

Your beauty lights the darkness You reflect true love The world's so much better

Whenever you're with me

Embracing our days You are my life Though time waits for no one

Forever you'll be mine

Repeat Bridge I crave for your presence I yearn to hear you

I understand more because of you

Chorus You're a natural All is possible Everything seems right It's so surreal There is no pretence Nothing can compare

To the moments we shared

You're my perfect joy A splendid sight Like a stained glass that Sparkles from inside Unconditional Love and honesty

It's all because of you

Because of you

You're a natural All is possible Everything seems right It's so surreal There is no pretence Nothing can compare To the moments we shared

You're my perfect joy A splendid sight Like a stained glass that Sparkles from inside Unconditional Love and honesty It's all because of you

-=USAH LEPASKAN=-

2007-01-25T11:51:00.000+08:00

USAH LEPASKAN

Yang terindah Terlukis di bibir mu Tak pernah ku lihat senyum mu Sebegitu Pudar kah sudah cinta yang ku beri Berwarna warni segala

Yang dijanjikan ia

Chorus Usah biarku bersendirian Usah biar hati mu di tawan Usah biar diri ku di sini

Seorang menunggu tanpa teman

Usah lepas genggaman tangan mu Usah biar semua berlalu Usah terlupa perasaan hati

Pertama kali kita bertemu

Usah lepaskan

Bridge Tak mudah ku melupa segala yang berlalu

Ku ingin selalu bersama mu

Repeat Chorus

Usah biarku bersendirian Usah biar hati mu di tawan Usah biar diri ku di sini Seorang menunggu tanpa teman

Usah lepas genggaman tangan mu Usah biar semua berlalu Usah terlupa perasaan hati

Pertama kali kita bertemu

Ku tak peduli apa sebabnya Engkau dan dia harus bersama Mendungnya langit bila berkata

Kita patutnya masih bercinta Usah lepaskan

Usah lepaskan

Yang terindah Terlukis di bibir mu Tak pernah ku lihat senyum mu Sebegitu

^^mY saDdeSt moMent^^

2007-01-24T20:22:00.000+08:00

well.. had my accounting c.a. todae.. n im so gonna fail d section B arh.. it was a killer!! farkklah.. ive yet to study my other chapters which ii dun even haf any idea on how to do em.. waddahell lorz!! n to tink tt we're oni six weeks awae from wat we students owaez fear.. EXAMS!!!!! gosh! ii dun wanna fail arh.. im so scared.. ive been missing alot of lessons arh.. not counting those lessons where ii owaez come late.. n thanx to those lesson.. ii owe Mrs K.. 6 hrs of CWO.. whoa~ a COW doing a CWO!! sheesh..

speaking of six weeks.. ii will foreva get emotional weneva ii tink of d tyme ii had left before syg n darling pillay were to graduate.. [[im not sure if wat ii heard abt darling pillay's gonna get debarred from his exams is true larh.. ii hope not.. but if d news is true.. it's good in another wae.. :p hehe.. sorrie darling.. ii pray hard tt uu wun get debarred kae?? coz.. ii myself.. mite be under one of those students who gonna get debarred tis semester.. ]] six weeks will juz pass by juz lyk tt... haiz~ it's not far from now... now.. it's oreadi coming to d end of january.. ii dunno how im gonna survive wifout them once dae've graduated.. yes.. true enuff.. im grateful tt ii still haf my JACKASS bros n sis.. but dae gonna graduate oso @ d end of this year... haiz.. dae r d ones tt ii owaez hang out wit afta school.. well.. wat ii can do now.. is to treasure every moments.. every minutes left for me to spend wit em.. before dae leave d school...

went back wit darling pillay on mondae.. ii didnt wanna go home.. had a tiff wit my parents.. ii juz wanna stae out.. followed syg n darling with d other engineering BLs.. fadily syg, hafiz, muhsin, bala n adeq afik... dae had a tok once again.. enginerring stuffs.. wen all was done.. everyone went home.. syg was wondering why wen darling told him to go home first.. coz he gonna stae arnd wit me n he assured syg tt he'll take care of me n send me back home.. ii noe.. syg was worried.. but dun worrie kae, syg?? took 27 towards airport and make a u-turn back to sengkang.. had a long tok wit darling during d journey.. that was d dae.. tt ii adcili "went out" with darling alone.. before he left.. ii juz felt lyk crying... he told me tt once he graduated.. he wun be coming back to the school.. wah!! tt means.. ii wun be seeing him anymore larh afta tis.. gosh!! but he told me.. he assured me tt d MONYET will come back for his LEMBU.. ii dunno larh.. ii juz feel sad..

YEABAA.. ii dunno larh.. d recent post.. ii did mention tt it still existed.. ii gez so.. but ii dunno where is it leading to.. watz happening to the grup.. it seems that each dae.. there's owaez conflict between one another.. it juz pains me to see us drifting apart.. y izit that we cant be as united n happie as one big family as we used to be?? ii noe.. ii mae not be a member of the engineering or d AHS.. but.. until wen r we gonna hate each other n bring each other down?? yes.. adeq afiq, bala, hafiz, fadily syg n muhsin.. uu guys haf a point tt hidayat is not doing a great job as the engineering chairman.. ii agree wit uu pple.. but ii hope.. afta tis.. there's no more conflict.. same goes to the AHS.. no more hatred towards zai.. we are all humans.. we never failed to make mistakes.. uu guys haf sorted it out.. so.. ii hope there'll be peace in every schools, yarh?? give yat n zai a chance to improve on themselves..

YEABAA.. ii will try to bring all of us back together.. can we?? that's my wish.. ii lurvee all of uu n ii dun wish to c us breaking up becoz of all this dissatisfaction or hatred between each of us.. if there's anything tt we disagree.. dun be afraid to voice it out.. n me.. im owaez here for all of uu if uu guyz haf any problems.. n ii tink uu guyz noe tt.. :)

To my JACKASS bros n sis.. ii noe.. uu guyz care abt me.. uu guyz lurvee me.. n tt's d reason y.. uu guyz didnt wanna tell me anything if there's any problem coz.. uu dun wanna hurt me or make me worried.. ii appreciate it.. dun worrie.. ii understand ur actions, aitez?? but if it's out of d BLs.. no matter wat.. remember.. dun leave me out.. okie??

hmm.. january is coming to an end.. february is coming.. Lalat's bdae is juz arnd d corner.. on d 2nd of feb.. n ii still dunno wat to get for her.. not forgetting fyra's on d 9th, jannah's on d 11th n sam's on d 12th... my bdae is d closing for d feb babies in our cliques.. ii wonder wat surprise hafiz has in mind.. n syg.. im gonna expect a surprise from uu, ryte?? n im waiting.. i'll juz wait n c for tt dae to come.. but im not expecting anythng much arh...

okey larh.. i'll juz end my blogging here..

signing off

-=dayah_kekek a.k.a lembu=-

LaTeSt uPdaTe

2007-01-20T15:12:00.000+08:00

weii... it's been weeks since ii last blog.. hmm.. well.. within these weeks.. many thngs haf happened..

ii gez.. d grup YEABAA.. it still exists.. but.. within d grup itself.. we haf our own cliques.. ahakz.. n gez wat?? im part of another grup arh.. JACKASS..n d members arh.. dya, fadily syg, yenn, bala, afiq, hafiz n muhsin.. yeah..

-=dya=- --> Pussy Cat GaL

-=fadily syg=- --> MagNeto

-=yenn=- --> BooBy GaL

-=bala=- --> Sex MaNiac

-=afiq=- --> Dick Slapper

-=hafiz=- --> Fizzi

-=muhsin=- --> ToyoL

haha.. namer.. satu satu merepek sey.. tapi stail.. wee~

bridging is somehow over.. okey larh.. ii get to work wit my super.. Brie Belo.. oh my god!! ii can melt manz werking wit him.. he's juz so kiuut.. ii juz lurvee it each tyme he kols me gorgeous bitch.. aargh!! cair aku!! wit tt kiuut smile.. adoii. RM.. my retail klaz.. ii lurve tt klaz, manz! dae r quite sporting somehow.. quite participative.. n becoz of tt.. d other retail klazes thot tt we, bridge leaders, favour RM.. [[since wen is there favouritism in bridge leaders??]] ii wun blame d new batch.. during d telematch.. 10 of d participants came from RM.. but none from RK or RL.. so yeah.. no surprise dae feel tt wae.. on tt dae.. there was a disagreement between d BL n SC.. to tink of it.. yeah.. engineering got 4th n we business got 3rd.. altho ii was happie tt business won over engineering.. ii wasnt quite happie wit d results.. all of us seriusly dun understand how ICT cud win overall.. both games.. engineering won.. n as for cheerleading.. business was wae louder than ICT larh.. farkklah d judges!! sheesh..

afta d telematch.. we went to eat @ cafe 1.. then.. we plaed a game called dare or dare.. we didnt want to plae truth coz it's boring.. n all was a sexual dare larh.. heh.. ii had to start d ball rolling larh.. n dae adcili asked me to kiss syg on d lips.. but later.. dae changed it on d cheeks.. geez~ ii dun mind kissing him on d lips.. :p then.. there was this part where fadily had to kiss mia.. ahakz.. n fadily was so malu malu.. haha.. kiuut sey.. he ended up.. using his shirt to cover mia's cheeks n kissed her.. haha.. in return.. mia too had to kiss fadily back on d cheek.. mia step malu malu.. but ii noe.. she lurveees it.. betul tk anakku?? muahaha.. well.. darius.. he had a combo arh.. haha.. he was sitting @ a corner wit pong n joanna looking thru d photos arh.. n he became a victim...

my booby gal had to squeeze her boobs in front of darling pillay.. n tis pussy cat gal had to squeeze his butt arh.. haha.. n darling pillay had to kiss him.. fuyoo!! wakaka.. pong oso got a kiss from me.. but d worst has yet to come.. after afiq was asked to pour a cup of ice into his boxers.. ii was asked to pour it into my bra arh.. ouch. adoii. it was damn fucking cold arh.. my boobs! mampos! it duzn end there. ive done d worst thing tt ive neva thot of doing it arh.. even wen ii was in TANJONG KATONG GIRLS' SCHOOL arh.. NEVER!! ii had to french kiss wit yenn arh.. n yes.. ii did it.. even tho it was my dare.. yen started it first n she ended up biting my lips. thanx arh sis. ahakz.. but tt wasnt as bad s d guyz kissing one another.. we ended it off wit darling pillay kissing azri syg.. haha.. n azri syg was lyk reluctant arh at first..

d next dae.. ii ended earlier than d others.. went to do my project wit azimah, su n diana.. went to plae pool while waiting for syg.. n we met him halfwae arh.. maryam, leila, zimah, su n diana was teasing me all d wae arh.. pe jer.. malulah saya.. heh.. supposed to wait for darling pillay.. he didnt come to sch arh.. met bala.. but he was waiting for afiq n d rest arh.. so.. me n syg went home first.. ii was damn tired arh.. n syg was damn shag arh on tt dae.. but we ended up lepaking @ sengkang.. hehe.. juz lurveees it wen ii spent tyme alone wit him.. ii heart him.. *muaXx*

n yes.. gez wat?? ii didnt expect dali.. to be maryam's ex larh.. farrk larh tt guy.. all along.. ii didnt noe tt d guy tt kips bugging me everynyte to tok to him n go out wit him was adcili my own klazmate's bf arh.. sorrie maryam.. ii reallie dunno abt tt.. yucks!! ii hate tis kind of guy sia.. ii dun lyk it sey if my bf were to plae timer behind my back!! so.. syg.. if eva uu become my bf.. uu better think twice before uu do it, aitez??

okeylarh.. ii gtg now.. c ya..

signing off,

-=dayah_kekek a.ka lembu=-

wEe~ aHaKz..

2007-01-05T15:42:00.000+08:00

well well.. ii juz came back from my holz.. went to putrajaya.. from d 30th December to 2nd January.. then to KL n for d laz two daez.. my family n ii.. we juz staed in Melacca.. hmm.. okeylah d holz.. wasnt tt great.. not tt bad either.. Putrajaya.. was a nice place arh.. @ last.. ii managed to c n enjoy d nice view.. it is a beautiful landscape.. hmm..

went KL.. n too many things happened larh ehk.. 1st nyte.. syg kolled me up.. but my batt was flat.. so.. didnt get to tok much to him.. but we managed to kip in touch tho.. using my aunt's hp.. heh.. kolled him up b4 ii went to sleep.. he was conferencing wit aren, afiq, fadily syg n hidayat.. but most of d tyme.. he was awae larh.. no wonder wen ii asked him to kol.. he didnt respond to my msg.. joined conference for a while arh.. dae were so noisy.. as usual.. YEABAA grup can neva be quiet.. hehe.. afta tt.. syg private wit me for a while.. n gez wat?? azhar buat hal agik!! aargh!! farkk larh. tk abes abes sey nie anak.. wen is he going to end sia?? whoeva is kind enuff.. pls larh ehk.. tok some sense into him.. ii dun mind befrending him.. but ii can no longer tolerate any nonsense from him..

hmm.. thruout d holz.. ii missed everyone back in s'pore.. haiz.. my YEABAA members.. n lalat's digi cam.. ii brought it along.. oni pix of animals tt ii snapped.. haha.. there was lembu, elephant n kuda.. haha.. mmg patut pun.. kiter org ader outing to the zoo during one of d bdaes.. haha.. oraitz arh.. mia n dayat's bdae.. hehe.. ii reached s'pore on d 2nd nyte.. @ arnd 12 plus nearly 1am.. called syg up.. n he was outside.. okeylarh.. so.. didnt tok much to him.. afta bathing n all.. called my adek, afiq arh.. thot tt dae were conferencing.. but uu noe wad?? afiq answered my kol.. but he didnt realise it arh.. he was adcili sleep-toking arh.. ngigau.. adek aku nie! haha.. let me blog d best part of d conversation..

dya: "bsk.. korang seme jmp pat mane?? nk tgk citer ape?" [[dae planned to catch a movie larh..]]

afiq: "yg pegi.. aku, ko, yat, mia, nadiah n fyra.."

dya: "fyra?? fyra?? biar betul.. fyra ikut kiter?" [[ii was lyk repeating it arh..]]

afiq: "uh uh.. sape ntah pi ajak dier.."

dya: [[ ii was lyk.. wokey~]] "dlm kul brape tuu?? pat mane??"

afiq: "yg pegi.. LELAKI.. aku ngan MIA.." [[waddahell?? since wen did mia change her gender?? ohh yarh.. ii forgot.. she has a dildo mind you! beware of my daughter! ahakz.. :p]]

dya: "ermz.. afiq.. nie confem ko dah penat sngt tau nie.. dahlah.. ko g tdo sane.."

n afiq was lyk..

afiq: "ko dah nk letak?? aku blom agik bilang ko sape sape yg g bsk.."

haha.. afiq afiq.. adek aku nie! wakaka.. sleep toking.. abes.. imagine ehk.. afiq sleep toking.. hehe.. kekek.. hmm.. on d 3rd.. ii was supposed to haf IAC Lesson arh in sch form 1pm to 4pm.. but.. ii ended up.. going to Wee Care centre instead.. help em out.. thanx arh yen.. uu blurt it out.. ii was lyk telling her.. "ii miss my candy floss" n she saed.. "it's okey darling.. ur floss is here.." ii was lyk.. "shit!" she was lyk letting d cat out of d bag larh ehk.. coz in tt room.. oni got me, fir, mia, syahidah n yen.. whoelse can she refer it to besides fir?? ii dunno whether fir got d hint larh.. but he was smiling @ me afta tt arh.. we were joking arnd.. n ii was lyk.. "manz! tis is so hurting for me.."

wen all was done.. me, afiq, mia n hidayat.. we were supposed to catch a movie.. but we were damn tired.. so.. we've decided to chill n grab our bites @ d airport.. went to terminal 2.. haha... slack lyk hell.. mia was suggesting tt we all shud go GENTING as a grup during one of our holz.. n she dgn selambanya.. she saed.. "eyy.. go arh.. it's so cheap.. it's oni $90.. inclusive of transportation n accommodation.." ahakz.. n hidayat n afiq saed tis.. "set larh yat.. kite g GENTING.. kte duk jer tau pat dlm hotel.. sampai masernyer.. kte balek s'pore.." haha.. he added.. "kalau org tanyer.. sal ko duk ajer pat dlm hotel nie.. aku jwb.. sbb.. aku bwk duit $90.. utk hotel ngan tambang bas aje.. kalau aku kuar dari bilik nie.. aku tk boleh balek.." haha.. terkekek-kekek kiter org ketawe.. haha.. mia mia.. farnielah uu peepz.. bought chocolates from COCOA TREE.. shared wit afiq.. sent hidayat off to d mrt station n d step-siblings went home taking 27.. took an hour to reach Sengkang coz there was a traffic jam @ TPE.. hmm..

d next dae.. we had a BL miting.. haiz.. kecoh.. got our BL shirt.. okeylah.. bleh tahan teruk arh.. haha.. then.. during our lunch break.. dae start eir drama.. afiq n muhsin.. fyra angkat kaki.. wen nadiah came.. haiz.. ii dunnolah whether we are doing d ryte thing.. syg saed before.. anythng.. juz saed straight.. jgn simpan simpan or tok behind her back.. haiz~ so.. we've decided to confront her.. afta d miting.. while waiting for fyra n lalat.. we lepakz pat cafe 1 dulu.. bala n afiq took turns to angkat me.. haha..wen fyra came to join us.. ii was d one who did most of d toking.. afiq n muhsin.. didnt wanna tok.. waddahel lorz!! ii cud c tt fyra was controlling her tears arh.. wen all truth was out.. ii called her aside n sent her off to d bus stop.. we both ended up crying.. fyra cudn promise me tt she's not gonna commit suicide.. n if it's true tt she's suffering form leukamia.. ii feel sad.. we s frenz.. shud owaez be there for her.. but did my action hurt her?? ii dunno.. becoz of tt.. d security guard thot tt ii was a lesbian arh.. waddahell lorz!! went to join aren, lalat, afiq, bala, muhsin, hafiz, mia, nadiah n samaniah @ d forum.. dae stopped d game n consoled me.. dae told me it's not worth it to cry for such a gal.. but nobody understands.. if she reallie were to commit suicide.. it's me.. ii will be d one who has to leave with d guilty conscience thruout my lyf.. coz.. becoz of me.. ii did d toking.. becoz of tis.. it was too much for her to bear wit it tt she decided to end her lyf.. gosh! ii dunno.. ii juz feel sad.. haiz~ n before fadily syg left.. seme usik dier.. ckp.. fadily yg made me cry becoz he nak balek.. haha.. n sam.. yg tk bersalah.. pun kene.. bab he plaed d Hari Ini dan Semalam song.. haha.. tt's d song tt syg sang to me before he revealed his feelings for me.. *meltz* n becoz of tis.. ii contacted wit Azhar from Sports Management.. knew him during d NYAA Camp.. but he was oni a hi-bye fren until tis thng hepened.. haha.. toked to him.. n he knew abt my candy floss.. he asked me to go wit floss.. haiyo! ii dunnolah..

afta sch.. went to KFC.. shared d buddy meal wit bala.. sham came to join us coz ii asked him to come down n amek his baju BL.. afta sending mia, nadiah, salamaniah, hafiz n afiq off to d bus stop.. sham sent me off to my bus stop.. going off to whampoa.. but ii didnt go home straight.. lepakz wit sham under one of d void decks.. he asked me how are thngs between me n azri.. n ii saed.. ii dunnolah.. ii juz dun wanna put high hopes.. n he saed.. "trust me.. uu guyz will end up together one dae.." ntahlah..

ii eva saed tt.. once d YEABAA grup is made up.. no more in no more out.. well.. ii gez.. we hafta made d ammendments then.. fyra is out of d grup.. n muhsin took over her place.. now.. we want pong out of d grup n elizabeth n sam.. welcome to d grup.. okeylah.. ii wanna log off now.. c ya..

signing off

-=dayah_kekek a.k.a lembu=-

wEe~ woRds caN neVer expLaiN d FeeLiNgs tHat i hAf inSiDe..

2006-12-29T20:50:00.000+08:00

ii am supposed to be sleeping now.. but waddahell m ii doing now?? im adcili blogging arh.. ii cant sleep.. tho im dead tired.. all parts of my body are aching.. how ii wish my candy is here.. so that he can gimme a gd massage arh.. :)

well.. well.. ii juz came back arh.. had d BL bbq pit on d 28th Dec.. but me.. azri.. mia.. hafiz.. afiq.. hidayat n muhsin.. we went to east coast park on d 27th n tonned there.. ii had a great tyme down there.. tho it was raining.. it didnt stop us from our plan..

on d 27th[[d dae where mia n me were looking forward to]].. @ 10.30am.. ii met mia n nadiah @ compassvale bus stop there.. took 965 to go to azri's house.. before ii left.. gave him a kol but s ii haf guessed.. he was still sleeping arh.. n my darling.. pillay.. was supposed to be @ azri's house by 9.30am.. he was still sleeping @ home.. waddahell lorz.. ahakz..

hmm.. we were supposedly to alight @ d stop before admiralty mrt station.. but thanx to me.. we alighted @ 2 stops before d mrt station larh ehk.. walked all d wae.. juz to find blk 663.. cudn find d blk.. we went towards d mrt station to get our breakfast..[[we ate nasi lemak wrapped in d leaves.. it was delicious larh ehk..]] called him up juz in case his mom were to cook.. we wud be full by then.. n tis was d funny thing that happened.. called him up.. besides asking if his mom has cooked.. ii was lyk asking him.. d stop before d mrt staion was it from d Woodlands Bus Interchange or was it towards d bus interchange.. coz.. we cudn find blk 663.. n uu noe wad?? his blk was adcili.. blk 683 lorz.. ii gez mia heard d wrong thing arh.. ahakz.. so.. we walked back towards d blk.. but we still cudn find d blk 683.. so.. we ended up sitting under d blk 682C to eat our nasi lemak.. afta eating.. we realised that.. there was oni 683A-683D larh ehk.. n nadiah was lyk.. "dgr dgr.. blk 683 nie seme.. umah azri ehk.." ahakz.. we juz cudn stop laughing arh..

thus.. mia decided to call pillay.. coz we cudn get thru azri.. pillay saed that d blk was 683B.. 5th level.. wokey.. we thot of juz popping outside his house arh.. 683B was juz d opposite of where we were @ arh.. were making noise inside d lift.. joking abt how azri practice to be an Indian CM n all.. haha.. wow.. turning to d ryte.. we didnt noe watz d unit no.. so.. we cud oni depend on wateva we r sure that he has it.. for eg.. shoes.. slippers or even d umbrella that he brought out wen we plaed pool on tuesdae wit abg mojo n all arh.. no familiarities.. so.. we went to d other side.. hmm.. ader dua umah melayu.. yang maner satu gaknyer ehk?? hmm.. called azri once again.. wah.. kecoh.. for half an hour.. we cudn get thru him larh ehk.. farrkk lorz.. so.. ive decided to juz knock one of those two houses arh.. thank goodness!! nobody opened up d door larh ehk.. phew~ nobody noes watz azri's house no.. tt's d best part arh..

called fadily up.. n he saed he cudn ton wit us.. but he cud lend us his tent larh.. therefore.. rather than waiting for that CM to call us back.. we made our wae to fadily syg's house.. hmm.. gosh! he's damn kiuut larh ehk wen he opened up d door.. n ahakz.. d kuih tt was meant for azri's mom.. ended up.. we passed it to fadily's mom.. haha.. bukan rezeki mak azri kot.. on our wae down.. we thot of fetching dayat from d Woodland's control station.. called pillay up since he saed to mit him 1st.. then.. we shall all go knock @ azri's house.. hmm.. while toking to darling pillay.. @ last!! azri kolled us.. n uu noe wad?? he's adcili staeing @ blk 683D arh.. [[now uu noe y ii saed luckily nobody opened up the doors wen we knocked?? we've knocked @ d wrong house arh.. *punyerlah malu*]] well.. ii gez.. mia has a hearing problem arh.. mia mia.. we all ended up.. jmp pat umah azri.. waited for hidayat n afiq to arrive.. watched Bawang Putih Bawang Merah there.. haha.. azri's nephew is juz lyk him.. kiuut n oso so hyper-active.. wow!! still remember how he called out.. "ade bear pat luar.. buncit!!" ahakz.. it was adcili hidayat arh.. he juz appeared in front of d house.. me, mia, nadiah, pillay n azri's sista was laughing non-stop sia.. n uu noe wat?? ii got hit right in d middle of my boobs arh.. his nephew.. juz took d pecks for fadily's tents n hit me there.. ouch. adoii. nadiah was there larh.. ii was trying hard to control d pain arh.. but it was unbearable.. nadiah told mia wat heppened.. azri saw my face changed n nadiah was lyk.. "she got hit arh.." n darling pillay was d best arh.. he was lyk.. "eyy darling.. come here.." he didnt noe tt ii was hit directly @ d boobs larh.. ahakz.. n nadiah was lyk.. "even if she goes to uu.. wat can uu do sia??" haha.. ii noe my darling.. if eva ii got hit or got bitten by anyone or there was a mark on my thighs or arms.. he wud rub it for me larh.. but @ my boobs.. dun eva imagine arh.. wen he got to noe d exact spot ii was hit.. he cud reply.. "ii can do something oso wad!! ii cud massage it for her.." wakaka.. mepekz mepekz.. sheesh!!

@ arnd 3pm.. we all left d house.. kecoh.. everyone has to carry d stuffs larh.. there was thumbler, tikar, ice cooler, our bags lagik.. haha.. @ Woodlands Interchange.. we split up.. nadiah had to leave earlier.. she n darling took 161 to Hougang n d rest of us took 168 to Bedok.. thot tt darling was going to fetch anita n joined us tonned pat sane.. since.. he bwk a big bag.. but ii gez.. he juz wanna show off d bag wit d name.. "INSTRUCTOR PILLAY" on it arh.. mia kate.. bwk besar besar setakat nk buat jeruk ajer.. haha.. during d journey.. azri sempat kacau kacau nadiah.. since nadiah didnt haf his new no.. he step nk kenal kenal.. ahakz.. n she was complaining to mia arh.. haha.. sampai pat Bedok.. sempat mkn.. coz it was still raining.. afta buying wateva is needed.. haha.. mia.. dgn semangatnyer.. pple called it wire mesh.. but she was lyk.. "eyy.. mire wesh biler nk beli??" mampos! confident plak tuu dier bobal.. we all were laughing lyk hell sey.. hehe.. before we made our wae to ecp.. dae sempat asap pat tepi.. n we were looking @ mia's ezlink kad.. haha.. afiq kate.. muke mia mcm maid.. sheesh.. n try looking @ afiq's ezlink.. lagi.. pecah perut sey ketawe.. look @ his ezlink n uu will understand y.. hekz.. @ ecp.. d guyz pitched d tent. @ nyte.. ii went for a date wit hidayat.. ii wanna noe watz d problem that he's having arh.. toked to him.. far from d rest.. ended up.. d others plaed bowling arh.. hmm.. there were 3 tents altogether.. hafiz came @ arnd 8 plus.. nearly 9.. @ 1st.. all tents were pitched near d sea.. somehow.. becoz of d bad weather.. fadily's n hafiz tents were brought in under d shelter.. oni dayat's tent was left there.. hmm.. hidayat, afiq n muhsin were in d same tent.. hafiz slept wit mia.. but halfwae.. he slept on d bench.. coz.. he cudn sleep @ all.. manerkan tidak.. d crickets n d toads were so noisy.. n ii.. hehe.. ii slept wit my syg.. :) mia manje.. kononlah daddy dier ade.. dier mintak him tepuk her to sleep.. ahakz.. my daughter!! hehe.. cudn get proper sleep.. coz.. d guyz were making alot of noise outside. dammit. dae even peep into our tent arh.. nk amek speaker konon..[[mmglarh betul nk cari speaker.. but asal seme skali yg kene tgk dlm?? tkleh satu org ajer ke yg cari??]] haha. @ arnd 5 plus.. hafiz, dayat, afiq n muhsin went home.. but dae came back @ arnd 9 plus arh.. oni afta dae left tt ii cud get my sleep.. got to hug my syg all nyte.. *winkz*

on d 2nd dae.. d bbq nyte.. it was still raining arh.. but we did haf fun.. hmm.. aren, lalat, pong, fadily, pillay, anita, nadiah, sharkila n zahidah.. we plaed games n all.. was reallie enjoyable arh.. had a confession session.. between me, aren, lalat, afiq, muhsin, hafiz n hidayat.. ii was touched.. coz.. dae saed tt.. im a caring person.. someone with a pure heart.. owaez there for others.. but one thing abt me.. dae pitied me coz.. some pple owaez attack me.. im so stressed up arh becoz of it.. well.. thanx guyz.. but wateva uu saed.. tt's juz me.. hehe.. :) @ nyte.. abg mojo, bul, anqi, yen, fir, sham, kamisah, sharon, Liina, elizabeth came to join us for d bbq.. it was cool arh.. sham.. ahakz.. ii dunno wat on earth was he tinking arh.. he was adcili grinding me arh.. sheesh.. n syg was lyk giving tis look.. "waddahell lorz!" haha.. abg thot us d para para dance.. gerek arh.. fir came late.. he was supposed to be my dance partner arh.. hmm.. plaed d murderer game.. using abg's style.. it was challenging arh.. totally different from wat ive owaez plaed.. n can uu imagine?? ii was d nurse.. together wit sharkila.. n we were adcili surrounded by 3 of d murderers larh.. bul, mia n afiq.. haha.. funnie.. dae tried to kill me.. but ii was saved.. thanx to darling.. hehe.. azri planned a campfire for us.. hehe.. using charcoal in d middle.. before d campfire started.. afiq, dayat, lalat, nadiah, fadily, yen, anqi, sharkila n zahidah left home.. it was nearly 10pm arh.. sad to c my fadily syg went home arh.. ahakz.. but ii managed to take photos of everyone.. hmm.. fir was juz in tyme to join us for d campfire.. hehe.. he's kiuut larh.. even mia saed so.. afta d campfire.. sharon, Liina n elizabeth left.. bul left @ 11 plus.. aren left @ 12 plus.. sham left @ 1am n fir left @ 2am.. sent fir off @ d carpark.. got 2 c his "gf" arh.. kewl sey.. his "gf".. hehe..

on d 2nd nyte.. oni got me, azri, mia, abg mojo, hafiz n kamisah.. pong n his fren left @ 5am.. after plaeing pool wit abg mojo, mia, hafiz n kamisah.. can uu imagine?? dae went to plae pool @ 3am.. waddahell lorz.. ii was oreadi restless arh.. so.. ii didnt join em.. syg oso staed behind wit me.. mia was supposedly to sleep wit us [[me n syg]] in d same tent larh.. but ii dunno y she didnt.. she slept @ d tikar outside our tent.. kamisah oso ii tink.. not sure.. hafiz slept in d tent.. n abg mojo slept in d hammock.. he saed it was smelly.. haha..

left ecp @ arnd 11 plus.. dah mandi seme.. followed azri home to help him carry d stuffs.. ii was damn tired larh ehk.. went back to whampoa.. leaving for putrajaya tml.. gonna miss my syg arh.. haiz~ my candy floss!! okeylah.. ii wanna sleep now.. im damn tired.. adios.

signing off

-=dayah_kekek a.k.a lembu=-

mY haPpiE moMeNts wiT mY caNdY FLoSs

2006-12-27T09:25:00.001+08:00

aww... ii juz met my candy oN mOnDae.. n oSo yeSteRdae.. n ii wiLL be miTing hiM aGain LaTer... muaHaHa..

gOsh!! ii was daMn haPpie oN tuEsDae moRnEng.. he toLd me thaT he was jeaLous wEn ii toked abt FADILY... [[it gives me a tickle n it created a smile on my face... coz tt shows.. tt he loves me..:p]]

bLoGging tHis @ 8.22am.. beFoRe ii LeaVe to mit MIA @ 10am.. going to aDmiRaLTy to mit CM n piLLay.. hE bEtta bE aWaKe by then larh, huh?!!

hmm.. lyf has been meaningful for me for d past few daez... even tho tt there are tymes where ii was confused.. troubled by all these problems.. tt come n attack me @ one go... [[ii juz hate it.. y izit tt each tyme where ure bound to get ur happiness.. a step closer.. someone juz had to spoil tt mood.. n in juz a puff.. steal those lyt awae from me?? adoii. ouch. despicable pple. *sad*]]

well.. it's not a new thing to me.. ive been going thru all that since ii was wit adib. mebe.. ii was not that matured to handle all these problems then.. n to tink tt d person is adcili ur so-called gd fren is the b*****d.. is oreadi bad enuff.. :( but now.. ii leave everything in HIS hands.. for ii believe in fate..

ADIB.. WAN.. DANI.. all these guyz... haf crossed my path of lyf.. n ii dun regret noeing em.. NEVER.. these pple.. dae r d ones who adcili thot me d meaning of happiness but true happiness.. ive neva found n ive neva felt.. coz these pple.. dae come n go.. @ d end of d dae... im d one crying.. but it's okae.. ii gez im more matured now... ii noe.. dae r not meant for me.. tt's y.. dae will go one dae..

saeing abt tis.. ii wonder if my candy is d one for me.. d prince in shining knight armour.. ii do love him but ii dun dare to put any hopes.. ii dun wanna get hurt animore.. enuff is enuff arh.. ive cried too much.. n im not sure if ii can cry some more but ii noe ii will never get to stop.. im not sure how much strength tt im left with..

hmm.. let's forget d sad stuffs.. n ii shall juz blogged abt my happie moments..

fiRsTLy, oN moNdaE.. went to mit up wit HidaYaT.. supposed to mit up together wit azRi.. but yeah~ somebody was late!! he was still sleeping wen we had to mit @ 2pm @ harbourfront ConTRoL sTaTion.. beCoz oF that.. ii went dating skejap ngan dayat pat VIVOCITY.. ahakz.. sempat.. :p @ arnd 3pm..wen azRi arrived.. fullermak!! aHakz.. sMartt-maMat maneR ntah.. Hidayat n me were lyk.. "mcm mat maLaysia sakz!" wakaka.. mentang-mentanglah dier aru alek dari malaysia.. haha.. [[ii reallie miss him sia wen he wasnt arnd.. but wat can ii do?? d lyrics for d song "Hampa" by Ari Lasso... d chorus part.. somehow.. was portraying d feelings tt ii had then..it juz suits d situation..]] then.. we walked all d wae to SENTOSA.. thanz to HIM.. my slipper was distorted.. adcili.. our purpose of going there.. was to visit my papa bear.. afiq.. @ werk.. he owes me my COFFEE BEAN treat.. hehe.. yeah... n there.. dae took me to ride this thing.. ii was lyk practically shouting that suddenly.. my eyes was filled wit my tears.. [[soRrie darLing.. uR baju seme basah bab ii cried onto ur cLothes.. too bad arh.. uu noe im scared.. im afraid of heights.. yet uu all pulled me along to ride it.. so yeah~]]

frOm there.. we get a free drink from aFiq.. whiLe waiting for aFiq to clock out.. aZri n dayat was lyk trying to fix my slipper larh ehk.. ahakz.. n ended up.. dae used stapler to fix it.. sheesh!! mapekz. but uu guyz were kiuut arh.. heh.. wen aFiq has finished his weRk.. we went to VIVOCITY to replace my slipper.. it was seriusly distorted arh.. aFiq n azRi paEd for it.. wee~ whiLe waiting for my syg, faDiLy.. we went to eat @ d hawker centre.. heh.. hiDayAt sounds so down.. how ii wish ii cud help him.. but how to?? if oni he duz open up to mee.. took bus no 80.. n alighted @ ALJUNIED MRT station.. we had to walk all d wae to GUILLEMART RD.. met fadily there... plaed pool... n i haf 3 coaches on tt dae.. aFiq n HidaYaT thot me afta FadiLy... n thanz to em.. ive learnt how to plae pool but im still a beginner tho.. haf a lot to learn arh...[[juz becoz fadily n afiq lost.. azri n dayat was lyk running arnd d pool to catch em juz to pince eir nipples.. ouch. but it's okey. dae had eir chance too wen azri n dayat lost d next round.. *winkz*]]

went home @ arnd 11 plus.. took cab from NOVENA MRT.. didnt dare to walk in alone @ Whampoa.. coz.. it's not a gd district for girls adcili to go home alone there.. reached home @ 12.. n yeah.. somethng adcili happened larh.. ii hafta so-called "reject" fir arh.. d guy whom ii was very much interested in afta d NYAA camp.. but it's okey.. he understood my situation.. in fact.. he asked me to go wit my candy... gosh. fir.. i lurvee uu, aitez?? if oni uu were one step ahead.. haiz~ but wateva it is.. fir.. uu will still haf a place in my heart..[[hmm.. duz tt lyn ring a bell?? well.. wen ii saed tt.. ii do mean it, okey?? n im not giving him hopes or leading him on arh..!!]]

on tuesdae... ii met up wit mia n azRi... we lepakz pat CINNELEISURE before making our wae to CITY HALL to mit my abg mojo arh.. well.. azRi was damn irritating arh.. foreva teasing me abt FaDiLy.. [[yeah.. ii miss him.. azRi got to c his precious daughter.. but ii didnt get to c my fadily syg arh..:(]] ahakz.. tkperlah azRi.. coz tt shows tt.. uu reallie love me.. n ii hope tt uu meant ur words larh ehk?? heh.. went to plae pool again wen we met up wit abg mojo.. we went to d one in marina square.. ended up plaeing pairs.. SIBLINGS vs FATHER n DAUGHTER.. wee~ dae won.. me n abg lost.. but it's okey.. azRi nids mia to win.. muahaha.. *winkz*

okeylah.. till here ii gez ii shall blog.. or i'll be late.. heh..

signing off, -=dayah_kekek a.k.a lembu=-

a bRieF deScRiPtiOn oF ma-SeLF.. muaHaHa.. :)

2006-12-22T19:39:00.000+08:00

okey okey.. tis is my first tyme blogging.. so yeah.. pardon me if my entries are all boring.. before ii start.. ii juz wanna thank mia for doing tis lovely layout for me... ii lurveeeeee it!! *muaXx* firstly.. ive named my account dya-lembu-lyf-sux.. y did ii create such an account??

hmm.. basically.. dya.. is shortform for Hidayah.. ive decided to call myself dya.. tt's becoz Hidayah is too long a word to be remembered.. so.. dya is so much easier.. hmm.. LEMBU.. it's a name given by my darling.. PILLAY.. a kiuut lil name.. a name which everyone noes me s.. d term LEMBU.. is lyk a synonym to me.. a symbol which is signficant to others.. those who noes me.. yerpz.. dae noe tt Hidayah is my name... but to others out there who has juz gotten to noe me or has yet to get to noe me.. dae noe me s LEMBU.. for eg.. PONG.. if uu were to ask him.. "do uu noe who is Hidayah??" n u'll get a reply lyk.. "ermz.. nopez.. but ii will get to noe soon".. lyk waddahell?? ahakz.. but if uu were to ask.. "uu noe who is LEMBU??" dae will go.. "yerpz.. ii noe.. she's PILLAY's darling, ryte??" muahaha.. im not angry.. im not pissed off weneva pple called me a LEMBU.. in fact.. ii responded each tyme dae called me that.. im not ashamed to refer myself s a LEMBU too.. for this significant name given to me.. is d starting of d fun tt i had being wit those whom i reallie treasure for dae r my FRENZ.. not juz frenz.. but great frenz.. thanx darl for giving me tis kiuut lil name.. but wateva it is.. ii am an EDUCATED LEMBU, okey?? not any ordinary LEMBU.. wee~

hmm.. lyf..?? somehow d term blog has saed it all.. this is where all bloggers will publish entries about anythng tt revolves around em.. anything to do wif eir lives.. sux?? ii dun c d necessary for me to elaborate more on tt.. it's kind of obvious isnt it?? but thanx to YEABAA [[a name created by AREN.. for our grup which consists of 22 of us.. stail stail..]] lyf has been meaningful to me.. uu guyz haf shone d lite into my lyf tho all these conflicts has been bothering me for d past few wks.. thanx peepz.. ii lurvee uu all, aitez?? *muaXx*

YEABAA ---> Suhana a.k.a Lalat

Jannah a.k.a Barbie Doll

Sam a.k.a Chilli Chop

Hidayah a.k.a Lembu

Azri a.k.a CM [[he's oso my bear..:p]]

Bala a.k.a Black Bear

Nadiah a.k.a Robot

Mojo a.k.a Baboon

Pillay a.k.a King Ah Boi [[he's oso my darling...:p]]

Anita [[Pillay's Future Wife-To-Be]]

Hidayat a.k.a Gorilla

Mia a.k.a Ah Ma [[she's oso known s shorty or miang.. but she's still adorable..:p]]

Muhsin a.k.a Toyol

Afiq a.k.a Papa Bear

Hafiz a.k.a Fizzi

Liina [[she's my sista..:p]]

Adam [[Aku Darah Anak M*** Fill up the blanks larh ehk..:p]]

Farina a.k.a Aren

Fadily a.k.a KING PHEN0M

Firdaus a.k.a Usher's Nephew [[tis reminds me on how gullible Mia was 4 believing it.. ahakz..:p]]

Sham a.k.a Mr Boy Denki

and last but not least,

Shahibul Kahfi a.k.a Bul

Yeah... those are the names of d YEABAA family.. hehe.. looking forward to build a greater bond wit all d YEABAA members.. hehe..

Here are some of the photos that ii took with d YEABAA members:-

[[eNjoY viEwInG mY pHoTos..:p]]

*LaLaT-DaYaH-ArEn* [[duRinG oUr tReE-t0P waLk]]

*daYah-aRen*

[[@ pLaZa sInGaPuRa aFta waTcHinG sTep-uP wiTh d otHeR BLs]]

*aReN-DaYaH-mIa-NaDiaH* [[seMpaT posIng.. BL beaUtiEs anYoNe?? aHaKz..:p]]

*sHaM-DaYaH* [[iN bUs 65... oN d wAe h0Me aFtA waTcHiNg sTeP-Up wiTh d oThEr BLs]]

*aREn-daYah* [[@ eScApE wHiLe waItIng f0R daRLiNg aZrI..:p]]

*PiLLaY-MoJo-AzRi* *LiiNa-AreN-DaYaH* [[whiLe waItiNg foR g0-kaRt]]

*aReN-DaYaH-aNiTa* [[inSiDe tHe waShRo0M..aLL dReNcHeD uP..:p]] *daYah-LiiNa* [[sHe's mY siSta.. heHe.. LuRvee uu..*muaXx*]]

*daYah* [[aLL soAkEd Up.. *wiNx*]]

*piLLay-aNita-MojO-aRen-aZri-DaYah-LiiNa* [[iN frOnt oF eScApe tHeMe paRk befoRe we Left]]

*LaLaT-aReN-DaYaH* [[paT caFe One afTa a BL miTiNg]]

*fYra-piLLaY-aReN-mIa-aZri-dariUs-hiDaYaT-aFiQ- BaLa-faDiLy-daYah* [[iT's sLeEpiNg tYme.. wee~]]

*paRt oF d YEABAA gRuP*

[[aZrI aMeK gaMbaR]]

*oUr HaNDs.. sTooD as oNe* [[mIa x-TraLaRh..:p]]

*@ d aMpiThEaTrE*

[[niCe scEnErY.. niCe aMbiEnCe]]

*aCtiOn paCk pEePz* [[wOoHoo-mE sTaNdIng beSidE faDiLy sYg.. muaHaHa..:p]]

my-unforGeTtabLe-meMoRiEs

**FaLSaFaH MeLaYu MoDeN**

~al-kentut~

:: uPDaTeS foR n0w ::

:: LosT n GaiN ::

a coMeBack... wEe~

|| DaMBaaN CiNTa ||

CHINGAY pixtures

CHINGAY 2007

**a poEm deDicaTed t0 my beLoved azRi**

p-lay darLiNg~

++dedicated to CM++

"mY bDaE g|FTs"

**mY wOes**

||moJo gRad daE||

~hEy hEy~

@ words of wisdom @

"I am STRONG"

"waTz haPpeNinG???"

**firDaus Vs azRi**

-=coNFuSed=-

FARRKK LaRH!!!!!!

^**^ aLL beCauSe oF yOu ^**^

-=USAH LEPASKAN=-

^^mY saDdeSt moMent^^

**LaTeSt uPdaTe**

wEe~ aHaKz..

wEe~ woRds caN neVer expLaiN d FeeLiNgs tHat i hAf inSiDe..

mY haPpiE moMeNts wiT mY caNdY FLoSs

a bRieF deScRiPtiOn oF ma-SeLF.. muaHaHa.. :)

FaLSaFaH MeLaYu MoDeN

a poEm deDicaTed t0 my beLoved azRi

mY wOes

firDaus Vs azRi

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